Wolf. Normal by Lynne Curry

The laptop glows in the dim kitchen, blue light flattening the room, turning the window into a black square that gives nothing back.

I drag the computer closer, rubber feet rasping across the table like a warning.

Resurrection Pass Overnight: Intermediate hike: Good fitness required.

The photo at the top of the event listing shows a line of hikers crossing a narrow bridge, green valley opening beneath them, the future open wide.

Easy. Airy. The kind of day people framed and hung on the wall as evidence of the life they lived.

My cursor waits over Join. I imagine forwarding it to my daughter. Her thumb pausing mid-scroll. Her eyebrows lifting. The small private smile she saves for evidence I have done something embarrassing.

Mom? Out there?

You’ll slow the other hikers down. There’ll be a narrow ledge, you’ll freeze.

The cursor trembles. I could still close the app. Tell myself next month.

I press my lips together. Watch me.

I tap.

The screen refreshes. Confetti explodes.

You’re going.

My stomach twists, thrilled and sick.

“Well,” I whisper into the empty kitchen, palms flat on the table, grounding myself in laminate. “Congratulations.”

I study the event details.

Resurrection Pass. Overnight in a public-use cabin. Moderate pace. Moderate for whom?

My ex-husband leans back in his chair, smile stretched thin, explaining something simple as if I need subtitles. My daughter watching him, learning the choreography. The two of them sharing that quick glance that turns me into weather, background, static.

My thumb drifts toward the Leave button.

I stand so fast my knee cracks the table, and I shut the laptop before courage leaks out through my feet.

***

Morning drapes itself in low clouds and the smell of wet gravel.

Cars cluster near the trailhead, Subarus and trucks wearing bumper stickers like merit badges. I kill the engine and sit there, hands welded to the steering wheel. Hikers in Brownian motion, tightening straps, clicking poles open, greeting each other with the easy shorthand of the already competent.

When I step out of my car, cold grips my throat. My boots look newer than everyone else’s. My pack sits higher, wrong somehow.

Turn around. Drive home.

A woman with a blond braid lifts her chin toward me. “You here for the Meetup?”

I nod, smile stretched and polite, the expression I perfected at conference tables and parent-teacher nights. “Hi. Tess. First time.”

“Nora. Fun route.” She gives my pack a quick, efficient scan. “We’ll keep it moving.”

Translation: keep up.

A tall man glances over, frowns at my pack, then steps close, reaching for my shoulder straps. “You want to snug this down, so it doesn’t pull you backward.”

His fingers work fast and competent. I freeze, arms half lifted, unsure where to put myself while he rearranges me. “There.” He steps back, brushes his palms together. “Better.”

“Thanks, I’m Tess.”

“Mark. Team lead.” He’s already turned away. Around us, conversations braid and tighten.

“River crossings should be fine.”

“Heard there’s bear sign near the second bridge.”

We start walking.

Gravel shifts underfoot, then dirt, then the green swallow of trees. The group stretches into a line, pace confident and unhurried, still asking a question of my lungs.

I focus on breath. The soft mechanical swing of arms.

Up ahead, laughter sparks. Someone tells a story about a ridge in the Chugach. I nod at the right places. My attention keeps slipping sideways, tugged by the woods.

No birds. The quiet presses close, thick as wool.

I roll my shoulders. People hike here every day. They’d react if something mattered. Right?

We round a bend where the trail softens into mud, prints layered and overlapping, history pressed into earth.

Everyone tromps through, chatting, poles clicking.

My gaze catches on the edge.

Large. Deep. Clean.

Not crossing.

Running alongside.

I slow.

Another print appears ahead, same direction, same easy stride. Then another. Pace matching ours without hurry, without drift, like a shadow that learned how to keep time.

I glance toward the others. They keep moving, backs broad and unworried, voices lifting, falling.

Say something.

My tongue presses to the roof of my mouth.

Maybe nothing. Don’t be dramatic. Don’t be the woman who cries wolf.

I swallow.

My eyes keep counting.

One.

Two. Three.

The prints keep their distance from the trail, sliding in and out of brush, reappearing with a patience that tightens my spine.

I lengthen my stride and catch up to the cluster ahead. Breath quickens, urgency masquerading as exertion.

“Hey,” I call, hating how my voice asks permission before the word even leaves my mouth. “Can I show you something?”

Mark, Nora and two others slow with the tolerant air of people humoring a delay.

Mark plants his poles and smiles, open, encouraging, already prepared to educate. “What’ve you got?”

I step aside, crouch and point.

“There. And there.” I trace the line forward with my finger. “They’re traveling with us.”

Boots crowd the mud. Shadows overlap the evidence.

Nora squints. “Wolf, probably.”

“They use trails.” Mark taps the mud with his pole. “Easy walking.”

Relief ripples through the four.

Explainable. Filed.

“But…” I try again, heat rising in my face. “They’re not on the trail. They’re alongside.”

Mark gives a chuckle and taps one of the impressions with his pole tip. “See how soft the edge looks? Most likely from last night. Hard to tell once people start tromping around.”

He gestures to the mess we’ve made.

My shoulders fold inward. “Right. Of course.”

Nora gives me the smile people use when they’re pleased you tried.

Gold star. Run along.

Their conversation restarts midstream, the moment dissolving as if I never knelt in the mud.

I stare at the next print ahead.

Same direction.

My pulse knocks once, hard, against my throat. I stand and follow.

Branches knit overhead.  

Wolf. Normal.

The prints return twenty yards later.

Closer.

I measure without meaning to, counting boot lengths from trail to track, arithmetic sliding into place.

Fifteen.

Ten.

Eight.

My breath shortens. I force it back out.

Poles clack. Packs sway.

I could point again. I picture their patience thinning.

I keep walking.

The trail bends toward a stretch of thicker brush, alder leaning in, leaves whispering against nylon sleeves as we pass. The air smells green and wet and recently disturbed.

A crack snaps inside the trees.

Not loud. Decisive.

The line falters.

Heads turn in near-unison, the choreography of prey pretending not to be.

“What was that?” someone asks.

“Probably a squirrel.” Mark shrugs. “We’re pretty noisy.”

Nods travel up and down the column.

Motion resumes.

But I catch it, the flicker. A recalculation.

They remember.

I see myself crouched in the mud, inconvenient, resurfacing like indigestion.

My stomach tightens with a hope so mean it almost feels like cruelty.

See, I wasn’t—

No. Don’t.

Nora glances back at me with a grin that wants camaraderie. “Your wolf’s coming to check us out.”

A couple hikers chuckle.

I shape my mouth into something agreeable, safe. “Guess so.”

The brush runs tight along the trail now. I scan the margins, pulse syncing to my steps, attention sharpening to a wire. 

Seven yards.

Then six.

The next print lands so near the path I could step into it without lunging.

I drop my gaze fast, pretending to adjust a trekking pole strap, hiding the map forming in my head.

If I stay quiet, nobody gets that look in their eyes.

Up ahead, conversation rises again, relief hardening into bravado.

“We’ll be at the cabin in an hour.”

“Hot food.”

“Maybe a fire if we’re lucky.”

Civilization. Walls. Doors that close.

My heart climbs toward the promise.

Beside the trail, the prints keep pace.

The first glimpse of the cabin arrives like a rumor between trees. Relief surges through the group, traveling person to person.

“There it is.”

“Perfect timing.”

Pace quickens. Hunger wakes. Jokes return, louder now.

My body tries to follow, tries to believe wood equals protection.

But my eyes slide to the edges of the clearing. Search first. Celebrate later.

The cabin sits square and patient, door shut, windows dark, porch worn silver by other people’s boots. Smoke curls nowhere. Nothing moves.

Fine. Good. Normal.

Packs drop with theatrical groans. Nobody looks behind us. We funnel toward the door. Mark reaches it first, lifts the latch, pushes inside like ownership transfers naturally to the person least afraid to claim it.

Air breathes out: cold ash, old wood, strangers.

Nora steps past me, scanning bunks. “We can stack gear along that wall.”

Someone else claims the table, spreading food in quick territorial blooms. Headlamps appear. Stove parts clink. Wet socks drape with optimism.

The choreography of competence.

I hover in the doorway, heart ticking to trail rhythm.

They fill the room fast, warmth building from noise alone, civilization assembling itself from habit.

This could be fine.

Behind me, the clearing waits.

I turn.

Just one look. Casual. Nothing dramatic.

Evening lowers, light thinning. Trees crowd the perimeter, shoulder to shoulder, good witnesses, terrible allies.

I scan the ground near the steps.

Boot prints. Scuffs. Our arrival stamped everywhere.

Then, beyond the churn, where the mud holds shape—

There.

Large.

Fresh. Edges holding.

My gaze follows the line.

One.

Two.

They arc toward the cabin.

My breath stalls halfway in.

Inside, laughter spikes. Someone knocks over a pot lid and swears cheerfully. The stove coughs to life. Normal roars behind me, bright, persuasive.

I could walk in and swallow what I know.

I imagine the smiles again, the gentle rearranging of my fear into something cute.

Your wolf. I turn, stare harder, bargaining with the dirt for a different answer.

Nothing changes.

They came close enough to understand us.

“Hey,” Nora calls from inside. “We’re about to eat.”

I brush my palms on my pants and take one last look at the clearing.

The trees give nothing back.

I go inside and shut the door. Dark presses against the windows early, thick as a held palm. Inside, heat swells. Damp socks steam near the stove. I accept a bowl, perch on the edge of a bench, and lift soft, spicy noodles. Someone produces chocolate like a magician pulling mercy from a hat.

Laughter grows easier, rounder, fed by carbs and walls.

Bodies spread out. Boots line the wall in obedient pairs. Headlamps blink off one by one, the room settling into lantern glow and shadow.

Mark leans back. “Good miles today.”

Agreement hums.

Outside, something moves.

Weight through brush.

A presence rearranging twigs.

Conversation thins, falters.

Someone clears a throat. “Wind picking up?”

No wind touches the cabin.

Mark tips his head, confident in his ability to translate the world. “Probably animals shifting around now that we’re done crashing through.”

Probably. Merciful. Useless.

I keep my eyes on my bowl. If I look at anyone, they’ll see recognition, and recognition leads back to the mud near the porch.

A slow scrape travels along the outer wall.

Wood receiving curiosity.

My spine locks.

Across the table, a man chuckles, too loud. “Well. They know where the restaurant is.”

More laughter. I catch a woman’s worried face.

The scrape stops.

Silence pours in. No one speaks. The stove ticks, metal adjusting.

I count heartbeats. One. Two. Three.

A huff sounds near the door. Close. Alive. The intimate push of breath through a body large enough to matter.

Heads lift.

Eyes turn.

No more jokes.

Mark sets his bowl down carefully, as if sudden motion might insult the dark. He rises, crosses to the window, peers through the narrow slice of glass.

“What do you see?” Nora keeps her voice light. It frays anyway.

“Nothing yet.” He leans closer. “Hard to tell.”

My palms slick. Tell them they came close.  

Another voice, older. You’re always making problems.

I swallow both.

Outside, brush whispers again, circling, patient as math.

Mark steps back from the window, rolls his shoulders, reaching for authority he can still inhabit. “They’re curious. Smell food. They don’t want trouble. We’re fine.”

The group exhales in pieces, accepting the offering.

People begin arranging sleeping pads, movements efficient, determined. Zippers hum. Layers slide into place.

I unroll my bag near the wall, listening to the dark memorize us.

Another pass along the boards.

Closer.

My pulse climbs, looking for somewhere to land.

Across the room, Nora meets my eyes. This time she doesn’t smile. “You mentioned tracks earlier.” She turns to Mark. “They travel in packs, right?”

The room shifts.

Not much.

Enough.

I nod.

No one laughs.

Outside, something bumps the front steps. Everyone hears it.

Sleep performs itself around the room. Bodies zipped in nylon, breaths exaggerated, everyone pretending horizontal equals safe. I lie inside my bag, eyes open, counting the small settling sounds of wood, memorizing distance: window, door, stove, people.

Outside, the night keeps its own counsel.

Fabric rustles across the room.

A zipper opens.

I turn my head.

Nora sits up, hair loose around her shoulders, bravado wrinkled by fatigue. “Bathroom. I can’t hold it anymore.” She whispers. The dark negotiates volume.

No one volunteers to accompany her. Mark lies still.  

She shoves her feet into boots, grabs a headlamp, flashes us a grin assembled from spare parts. “I’ll be quick.”

The door opens.

Cold air sweeps in, smelling of metal and animal and the enormous fact of outside.

The door closes.

Her light bobs past the window, briefly sketching the clearing, the path toward the outhouse.

Then she disappears.

Silence returns, thicker now.

I count.

Five.

Ten.

The stove ticks.

Someone turns over.

From far off, a branch cracks.

I sit up.

My body has already chosen before permission arrives.

The scream tears across the clearing, high and total, ripped from somewhere below language.

Everything detonates.

Zippers fly. Someone swears. A headlamp crashes to the floor, beam spinning wild, making monsters out of boots, packs. Metal appears in hands I didn’t know were armed.  

The door bangs open.

Nora stumbles inside, slamming it behind her, hands fumbling for the latch.

“I saw them,” she gasps, back pressed to the wood as if she can force it outward. “I saw them.”

Her light jerks across the walls, frantic, searching faces.

“Where?” Mark’s voice has lost its easy shape.

“By the trees. God.” Her chest heaves. “Eyes. More than one.”

No one laughs. No one educates.

Her beam lands on me.

Not by accident.

“You knew,” she says, accusation and plea tangled together.

Everyone turns. The edge of a roof opens under me.

I could retreat. Pretend we’re all equally surprised. I push my hands into the floor and stand. “They’ve been pacing us since this afternoon. Closer each time.”

No one interrupts.

I keep going, terrified of stopping. “Food will pull them in. Noise might keep them uncertain. We stay together. Nobody goes out alone. We pee inside, into buckets.”

Mark nods, already rearranging himself around a new center of gravity. “Okay. Yes. Good.”

Nora slides down the door until she sits, shaking, lamp pointed at the floor now, light pooling uselessly at her knees.

Outside, something moves through the brush.

Step back. You’ll only make this worse.

The words strike old bruises.  

I stay upright, tracking the rhythm of fear moving through the room. Each time the boards tick, heads lift, gazes slide to me, checking whether my face changes.

It doesn’t.

Inside, terror works my bones like cold.

Outside, the world waits for light. Darkness thins, draining from black to charcoal to the exhausted blue of almost. Morning seeps through the windows, revealing damp socks, hollow eyes, people aged ten watchful years before breakfast.

No one jokes.

Mark rubs his face, exhales, nods toward the door. “We should see.”

We.

I stand before doubt can organize.

“I’ll look.”

Heads lift.

Mark steps aside.

I lift the latch.

Cold air rushes over me, raw, honest.

The clearing lies open, innocent as a stage after the audience leaves.

I step onto the porch.

Boot prints clutter the mud.

Ours.

Beyond them—

Circles.

So many the ground has given up pretending otherwise.

Paths overlapping. Closer than comfort intended.

A route worn toward the door.

They came near enough to consider us.

My stomach flips, but my mind settles, strange and bright.

I turn back inside.

“They stayed.” No drama. “But they kept distance.”

Breath moves through the room, not relief, not panic. Information. Usable.

“What do we do?” Nora doesn’t hide the plea.

I meet her eyes.

For a second, my daughter’s face replaces hers.

The old reflex claws upward.

Defer. Minimize. Offer it back to someone else.

I let it pass through.

“We hike out together. Tight group. Poles up. Talk. They’re assessing opportunity.”

Nods ripple.

No one rearranges them.

We pack fast.

Morning holds its breath while we assemble courage from straps and buckles.

I take the front.

Not because someone appoints me.

Because my feet move there.

The trail receives us, narrow, ordinary, miraculous.

We walk. Sound builds behind me, conversation forced at first, then easier, human noise staking a claim.

I scan the sides. Every snapped twig reports. Every shadow negotiates. Fear walks with me, intimate, undeniable.

So does certainty.

I can read this.

A mile passes.

Then another.

The woods loosen their grip, threat thinning not memory.

Voices grow louder. Laughter returns, cautious, grateful.

No one rushes ahead of me.

At a bend in the trail, Mark draws even. “Good call back there.”

The compliment lands. It doesn’t move me.

Ahead, the world widens, gravel glinting through trees, cars waiting like proof of civilization.

Inside my chest, something long folded begins to stand.

Gravel crunches under our boots, loud after the diplomacy of forest floor.

Cars blink through the trees. Civilization returns in chrome and coffee thermoses and the miracle of cell service.

One by one, hikers thank me. “Glad you came.” They drift toward their cars.  

Nora hugs me without preamble. “I’m really glad you came.”

“Me too.”

Mark comes over. “Who knew?”

“I did.”

Lynne Curry

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